current happy things and stress that comes on the side.

We went to the ultrasound yesterday and they are saying it looks like a boy! Such exciting news. I was actually hoping and thinking it might be a girl but I'm happy with either. We also got the call about the apartment while at the Drs office, we are approved.

So now I have a slew of new things to stress about including our current living situation not giving them much notice and questioning if they are going to still want some kind of partial payment because of the short notice. Also we will have to open utilities at the new place which usually has a deposit to get started. I mean, hopefully the catholic charities is going to approve everything for the apartment rent/deposit-wise and that won't stress me too much... I'm just really hoping some positive things are coming our way.

Ate a good dinner and trying to relax at home after a long morning but I keep getting little stress bugs in my ear. I'm also thinking about baby shower stuff... Rob's sister wanted to host it since they have a large house in Jersey (where most of the friends/family reside anyways) but of coarse my Mom doesn't want to cooperate for anything bc she lives in upstate NY. But shes not complaining about traveling (this time!) It's that she doesn't want to impose at their house by bringing the dog (because she hates putting her in the kennel overnight) and that she might have to get a hotel or something because we don't have a place for them to stay there. Also, she doesn't want to put $ in for a car with Rob's parents and isn't giving me a reason why besides what I'm assuming is shes being cheap. (Which we even tried to make a gofundme for but it hasn't gotten any hits) ANNOYED. Like the baby is going to have all kinds of check up appointments and god forbid there is an emergency where he will have to goto the hospital or need medicine asap. But also it will benefit me getting and getting to job(s) where I can make more than unemployment without walking or taking an uber everyday.

 I talk to my mom almost everyday, she helps us out every once in a while financially but I rarely ever see her because shes such a shut-in and shes obsessed with bringing her large dopey dog everywhere with her. Before we got married, it had been like 3 years since I physically saw her.

Anyways, I think I'm going to taper off for tonight.